Helloooooo readers! You still with me?
It’s a weird thought to wrap my head around but we have now been dealing with Covid here in the states for an entire year! I won’t speak to how its been handled or mishandled but I will say I am writing to you from my year long quarantine and am currently one vaccine shot in. YAY! Also, with the month of March comes the start of my 30th year around the sun. Big things all around!
So what have I learned in the past year?
- It does not matter if you set up boundaries for your safety and mental health, there will always be someone to condemn and criticize your choices. : I’ve learned that the best person to make the best decisions for my life is myself. If someone has a problem with that then they have their own issues to sort through that have nothing to do with me. I should move accordingly.
- Routines have saved my life.: I went through a real rough patch last year, going into this year, after suffering my third miscarriage in four years (during a pandemic, a storm and power outages in my area and hospital no less!) This time the bounce back was a lot harder. Being in isolation, unable to see family and friends and just escape really made me have to live in my grief for a long time. I can’t even begin to explain my thoughts during those months, but with the help of my husband I found a routine again. I starting working part time (I lost my job during Covid) and I started slowly working out. The return of a routine allowed me to free my mind from the stress of the unknown and keep a sense of normalcy through this experience.
- The love and respect I have for my husband goes deeper than even I was fully aware of.: This one was a surprising thing to learn. I love my husband very very very much, that part has never change. However, watching him support me through my depression and grief, handle his own, all while working full time from home (a switch made a year ago because of Covid) and meet the demands of increasing productivity demands while at home has really made me admire him so much more. I really do have an incredibly strong partner by my side and for that I am so lucky.
Now where do we go from here? This question remains over our heads as we all try to navigate this sickness a year in and imagine whatever the world will be once we’re finally freed from it. Honestly, I don’t know the answer to this any more now than I did a year ago. I will leave you with this: look how far we’ve gone when we didn’t know we could, how much farther can we go now that we know we can?